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This storm is ridiculous. Actually it's worse than ridiculous but I'm not sure what word would fit. It started snowing here around 7pm last night and it's still snowing and blowing every where. We have at least 2 feet.

And Dad asked me to shovel. I did the porch and front path and I now want to die. It's just insane.

Soybean would have LOVED this as a puppy but she didn't like it in December but I find it weird that the two weekends since we put her down, it's snowed and she loved the snow and cold. But she wouldn't be able to handle this because it's worse than December I think. It was supposed to stop 2 hours ago. It's not.

My arms are killing me and I'm sure my back will pay for it. So much for going to the chiro yesterday.

Going to go make some hot chocolate and a pb and banana sammich. And we're supposed to get another storm next week. Are you fucking kidding me?? I'm done!!! 

My puppy is now at the Rainbow Bridge. She is no longer in any pain and finally at peace.

Thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, love and support. They mean the world to me.

RIP Soy, I will always have you in my heart and I will always love you. :)

I woke up at 7:30ish to go to the bathroom and I figured I'd check on Soybean and let her out. Good news, she didn't poop in the house for the third night in a row. I then tried to get her to take her pills in her pb and j. Didn't work. She's now outside and I am going back to sleep when she wants to come back in. She didn't take her medicine yesterday and so far not today. She's peeing constantly, drinking constantly leading us to believe that maybe she's diabetic. I let her out yesterday because she wanted to go out, but didn't do anything other than stand there at the bottom of the ramp, look around, then want to come back in. It's getting harder to get her up to go to the bathroom. This is just enough. Kevin is coming home Saturday (then going away again for the weekend). So I think next week we'll most likely decide on a timetable. But she's not good. She was perfectly fine over the holidays when mom and dad were away, I had no problems with her for 10 days. It's just not fair to her anymore and the eating struggle is wearing on all of us.

And I got distracted and now have to do it all over again..but I stole this from msasl 
( End of year survey )

I just went down to look for my car stuff so I can get it registered. I couldn't find it but I don't have time to look more right now. I discovered going through my bags of all my books that I'm missing one. It's got to be down there. If it's gone, I'm going to be devastated.

Yep, that one. Signed and all. I better find it later.

The Phillies couldn't repeat. They tried. They'll be back next year.

But for now..... :*sobs* :(

I have never been so happy to see a Democrat lose in my entire life. I'm not excited about Christie, but Corzine needed to go. So much for all his money and big names who came in to campaign for him.

Freaking sweet. I know I said I thought he would pull it out but I wasn't going to be shocked if he didn't. It's a good day for New Jersey to be rid of him.

I KNOW we can do this. Forget my last post, it was crappy. Tomorrow is my unemployment hearing, and that's going to go well. And then on Wednesday we'll have Game 6. POSITIVE THINKING, BROOKE! I know I have been down, normally I'm not. I have always been a glass half full person. I think this past week just overwhelmed me with the move and everything else. Today I got all my computer stuff replaced that I accidentally threw out last week (yeah, another thing that went wrong). And I got it hooked up to the wireless router so all is good.

Chase Utley homered twice tonight to tie the record of most HRs in a World Series. Cliff pitched a heck of a game and we ran AJ Burnett out in the 3rd inning. It did get dicey in the 9th with Madson but we got the win to keep this thing alive. Wooo! Two more wins, we can do this!! I didn't wear any Phillies gear today, I think that may have helped. I'll be wearing Yitzhak on Wednesday since it's the 4th. It's a sad day but hopefully my boys will make it a happy one.

Alright, time for bed. I need good thoughts for this hearing tomorrow. I just want it done and over with.

GO PHILS!!! 

Edit: On this day in history, November 3rd, 1992, my political hero was elected the 42nd President of the United States. I'm hoping that's an omen for today.

The caption should read:
"Your assassination was the best thing that happened to my political career. Thanks, Yitzhak"
This place is sacred ground. I've stood there. This man should never ever be allowed anywhere near it. I don't give a crap that he's the Prime Minister. He must have hated doing that memorial. He hated that man. HATED him. And here he stands acting like he's in mourning. He helped incite the opposition to violance and then stood and acted surprised when one of his supporters put three bullets in his back. He's got Yitzhak's blood on his hands. Always has. Always will. I despise this man for many other reasons but some of us haven't forgotten the role he played in this. Seems everybody else has.

Phils are on the brink of elimination after tonight's loss. I just think they've given up, the defense was horrible. Tonight was heartbreaking because Feliz homered in the bottom of the 8th to tie it 4-4. Lidge got two outs and I'm thinking 'Okay, let's get out of here and then Stairs will come up, walk off". Then it just fell apart and the Yankees scored three runs. I  haven't cried at all during this Series, but after that, I was in tears. And the bats just haven't been hitting.

Tomorrow it's a must win. I don't see them coming back. It's soo hard to repeat.

Last week was painful, but this week could be worse. Phillies losing, my unemployment hearing is on Tuesday (which my uncle is telling me I'm likely to lose my appeal), Corzine is most likely to get re elected on the same day and then Wednesday is Yitzhak's anniversary, which is always hard.

is this ever going to end for me? When will the bad news just stop for me? I am just exhausted.

Bad news: This was honestly the most emotionally PAINFUL move I have ever made (and I've made quite a bit).
Good news: It's FINALLY over.

First phone call I answered at home was an automated message from Bill asking me to vote for Jon Corzine on Tuesday. I just listened to the message laughing hysterically. Sorry honey, I am not registered in NJ but even if I was, I wouldn't be voting for him. But I still love you. :)

Happy Halloween everyone.

Game 3 tonight. LET'S GO PHILS!!!!

I had to go to the post office for mom and while I was there I filled out the mail forwarding slip. I then went to get in the car and I burst into tears. This is the first move I've made that's not by choice. And unlike DC, it's from a place I am still in love with, just as much as when I moved there 3 years ago. I've known this was coming since August but now that it's almost officially here (I have to be out by Saturday), it's so hard and incredibly painful.

:(

One of THE most incredible and inspriational women I have ever had the honor of meeting..

Secretary of State Hillary Diane Rodham Clinton!!!




Happy birthday, Hilldawg!! :)

And in a very strange case of irony, the New York Yankees just clinched the Pennant. I'm sure she's happy but I'm sorry Hill, they're going DOWN!! ;)

2008-2009 NATIONAL LEAGUE CHAMPIONS!! Phils knocked off the Dodgers in Game 5 by a score of 10-4. It was good stuff. Ryan got the MVP of the NLCS. That really got me. Because I love him. I love all of them. I just love this team. I've always loved the Phillies, but this group right now, is something incredibly special. It is very hard to get back to the World Series after winning it the year before. Once I started thinking about the awesome games I went to, especially this season, it just brings tears to my eyes. Because this is my home team.

World Series, here we come!! Bring on the YANKEES!!!

Now they're up 3-1. It was 4-3 going into the 9th and the Dodgers had their star closer up there, Jonathan Broxton. He ends up walking Stairs and Ruiz, gets to 2 outs. Then the top of the lineup comes up. And Jimmy waits for a pitch to hit and just nails a line drive into the gap in center field, Bruntlett scored, then Ruiz scored. GAME OVER. Phils up 3-1. CBP was shaking it was going so nuts. I can't wait to hear from people who were there, must have been unreal.

This team just always, ALWAYS finds a way to win. I was shaking and had tears in my eyes because I couldn't believe it.  I just love them so much. It was an unbelievable game.

1 MORE WIN AND THEN IT'S BACK TO THE WORLD SERIES. LET'S DO THIS, BOYS!!!

Oh yeah, and Ryan had a 2 run homer in the 1st to give him his 8th consecutive post season RBI. The last player to do that? Lou Gehrig. Yes, Lou Gehrig.

Yep, 11-0 folks. Cliff Lee pitches 8 scoreless innings, 10 strikeouts, 3 hits. Completely DEMOLISHED the Dodgers. It was awesome! I went to Andi's for dinner tonight and we watched the game, it was a lot of fun. And the Phils were home tonight, tomorrow and Wednesday. If we're lucky, the series won't go back to LA, which would be sweet. Time to close it out.

LET'S GO PHILLIES!!! TWO MORE WINS!!!

My parents, married October 11, 1976


Bill and Hillary married October 11, 1975

Because I'm too tired to write out my thoughts. I posted this on another forum. It's about Obama being awarded the Nobel Peace Prize today:

I've said before, I've been very objective when it comes to Obama for someone who didn't vote for him. But there's no legitimate argument that can be made that he actually DESERVED this. True, he didn't ASK to be nominated or ask to win and he did say the money will go to charity. I just find it..strange. He's barely been in office 10 months! And he's not yet really done ANYTHING for PEACE. This award USED to mean something. You look at men like Nelson Mandela, Anwar Sadat, Yitzhak Rabin, F W DeKlerk. And then you see winners like Yasir Arafat, Jimmy Carter, Al Gore, and now Barack Obama. What did ANY of those men (the only exception is Carter because of Camp David I), do ANYTHING for peace? Arafat FOOLED the entire WORLD into believing he was fighting for peace when in fact he was nothing but a total coward even though he stood there in Oslo in December 1993 next to Rabin and Peres.

It's really got little to do with Obama and more to do with the credibility of this award. Which over the past few years, has done a very good job of proving that it has none. And it only discredits the winners who actually DID deserve this. And meanwhile, many many true peacemakers, get tossed to the side for this honor. As far as I'm concerned, it's disgraceful.

First I was very angry and thought of Bill, who I think everyone on both sides of the aisle, feels is one of the people who truely deserves this recognition, ESPECIALLY when he was President. There has not been as huge of a peacemaker as him since then. But then I just started thinking about my favorite Nobel Peace Prize winner and what he would be thinking:

On HCF, some people are saying Bill's probably "pissed". I don't think so. After all, Obama is his wife's boss and all tensions have eased. However, like the rest of us, he is probably just perplexed because it's just so weird and out of left field. And I'm sure, like me, he's thinking of Yitzhak and missing him, not only because it's so close to the anniversary of his death, but because he received this honor, back when it really was an honor. Not like the joke it's become, even before Obama got it. This just seals it though, and like I said, I'm not making a judgement on Obama, simply the Nobel Prize Committee.

Anyway, I'm going to bed. It's late and I'm sore. I did yardwork all day at our property in Glassboro (the house I grew up in that we still own and rent out). Dad's been working there and since he and mom are basically funding me, I figured I'd pay my dues. It's only the beginning..lol. Tim will be here tomorrow and I'll get a repreive from everything in Atlantic City. I can't wait.

Game 3 tomorrow in Denver. Forecast calling for snow and 30 degrees game time temp. Pedro is on the mound. Bring it! LET'S GO PHILS!!

The Phillies did it!! I never get tired of all of this really. I was crying as they got the last out. They beat the Astros 10-3 and they paid tribute to Harry Kalas by going out to his banner and dousing it with beer and champagne. I think that got me. It's just so much fun to watch.

I'm just soo excited to do this again. It's amazing. It looks like we'll get the Rockies in the first round, who we lost to in 2007 but I like our chances

The only bad news of the night was that the MRI came back on Jamie and he has torn 4 tendons in his groin and he has to have surgery. He's done for the year and won't be back until spring training. I literally broke down and cried when I heard. I'm seriously going to miss him in the postseason, he's such an intrigal part of this team. :(

In any case, LET'S GO PHILS!! They have a lot of work to do. It's just the beginning.